It never ends. CJ is back in the hospital with these awful bronchial asthma spasms yet again. The poor kid looks so drugged out because of all the different steroids. I was trying to cheer him up when I said well maybe when you finally get back to baseball you'll be so strong you'll hit a home run! He laughed which was what I was going for.
This made me think. Yes yes I think way too much. That fact has been pointed out to me many MANY times. However, in this instance it was more of a silver lining thinking rather than over analyzing. My life is extremely stressful. This is a fact and I doubt it will change anytime soon (unless a cure for diabetes is magically found). So CJ and I decided to make our own lists of things that make us happy. He has fallen asleep but here is mine so far:
The sun shining on my face.
Getting hugs and kisses from my boys for no reason.
Having friends & family that I can be my absolute self around.
Curling up with a good book.
I know that doesn't seem like much but its all I can think of at the moment. Keep in mind, I'm in a state of exhaustion here! I have never understood how people are expected to rest in the hospital with nurses, doctors, nutrition people, etc coming in and out through out the day and night.
I need a vacation!!!
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